Expectations...

I found this really really cool quote. Actually, it was a headline for a print ad for Vimal Suitings or something.
"My life. It's what happens between yesterday and tomorrow"
Not extraordinarly original or earth-shattering, but increasingly relevant for me. I salute the copywriter, whoever came up with it.
Another one, "Map out your dreams, but do it in pencil" - Bon Jovi (not word for word, I must admit)
So, I was doing some thinking (not thaaat much, don't worry). Here's the plan: TO NOT HAVE PLANS!
Yes, yes, before you say 'caution to the winds' and all that, hear me out. If you want something really badly, just let it go. If it's meant to happen, if it's meant to be yours- IT WILL and NOTHING and NO ONE can come in between!
Final year of school: Me sitting at the last desk, the one by the window, which looked out into this big pretty pastel-coloured house in front and to the side was the koovum river surrounded by greenery of some kind. (yes I know, I don't know why the koovum creeps up into this blog so often) Anyway, I'd be sitting there, half jotting down stuff about shares and debentures (I don't remember more than these two words in my two years of commerce education. And I got 95% both in Accounts and Business Studies. GO figure.) But my mind was really somewhere else, probably here in Estarra, clueless about the present, clueless about the future. I had no idea whatsoever what I wanted to do after school. What I did know was that I didn't want to talk about it.
Well, I did always did vaguely, detachedly dream of a certain college. And then, I applied. I wanted it. But the interview time came...and I talked and talked...and forgot to show them my certificates!
Needless to say, I was devastated for 2 days. But I guess whatever was meant to be, happened...and I got in anyway!
So, I'm following Santiago in 'The Alchemist'. He believed in his dream but he didn't obsess about it. He worked for it, but he didn't spend night and day fretting about it. He believed he was worthy to deserve it. And that was enough for him till his dream became reality.
So...if you love somebody, let them go... (you can fill in the rest)
If you want to be somebody, let it go...do all you can to be the best YOU can be...and see what happens...
If you want something really bad, let it go...if it's meant to be, it shall.
But then they say that if you don't fight for what you believe in, you won't get it. I think that your heart will tell you what to do then. Listen to it. It's your best guide. If there's nothing you can do about a situation, let it be. But if there's something you can, let your heart be your fire and fight for that good cause of yours!
I would say the disappointments come in life from expecting. But I just caught a scene from 'Something's Gotta Give' where Diane Keaton tells her daughter (Amanda Peet) that she's in love. She's crying. Amanda tells her that she should be like herself and not be so attached that she gets broken-hearted. She should not let go of herself so much that she forgets herself. Diane Keaton looks at her and shakes her head. She expected and wanted and she's in too deep. "Do you really believe that?", she asks her daughter. She tells her that that's not a way to live.
Theoretically, Amanda Peet's view sorta contributes to my philosophy at this point. But let's see if we really can keep Diane Keaton's at bay. :)